Thursday, January 7, 2010

The sky is falling down!!!!

Ooops i probably had my worst new year this year.Tcs came for campus placement to our college this year on 2nd and 3rd jan.I dreamt about bagging a job in this company for a long time but all my dreams crashed.Although i overcame the first hurdle i.e. clearing the written test the interview totally screwed me.I cant explain my feelings when i found my name was not in the list.My whole world seemed to be blank.I had a void feeling.The shock was so much i couldnt even cry.However my woes didnt end there.Next day the jmet results were out and i missed the iit cut off for 2 marks.I probably never felt so low on confidence in my life.The message in the message board of my room was-"BORN TO BE FAILURE"
probably this few words totally depict my dejected feelings.
Life lost its meaning to me and i was just going through motions.My friends tried to cheer me up but its my sweet friend Alo who finally lit up my mind.She was returning to Delhi for she studies there at AIIMS.Before returning she wanted to meet with me but i was so ashamed of myself that i refused and said i am not worthy to be her friend.But then she said something which i will always remember.--
"I choose you as my friend not because you are good in studies,not because of your funny antics.I like you because i know within this guy with an ever smiling face there is a person who effuses warmth in his every words,whose eyes lit up just by seeing others happy,who can drive away the gloom in anyones mind within a few minutes.I know you have a golden heart and i know success or failure wont change that.Anything else dont matter to me.So just stop being so miserable and be normal again"
These words really touched me and i had decided to try to work more harder to use any opportunity i get.I might have lost the skirmish but i will ty to win the battle.God plss shower your blesing s on me because without luck all my efoorts would be fruitless.
"i want some sunshine
i want some rain
i want a chance
i want to grow up once again"