my birthday celebrations...

Oops..this 12th may i grew older by 1one more year...
But...this year 12th may i had a horrendous experience.I was at Kalyani due to my college.And there in this sweltering hot there was no electricity for 6-8 hrs.It was almost like hell.But the worst happened in the evening when i took my friends out for dinner.We went to one of the most renowned restaurant there and ordered for biriyani.And gosh after making us wait for more then half hour the thing they served us was anything but not biriyani.We then ordered for mixed fried rice.. but here also mihaps occured.The mixed fried rice was pepered with almost rotten prawn..Yak!!!And we also ordered chili chicken but the less i say about it the better.So we wnt for desert to another shop.Thank god it was good...

But luckily however i had a great time when i celebrated my birthday with my school friends on 16th may.We first decided to gather at Bodhi's house one of my dear friend.There i had a surprise.I found they had arranged for a cake for me to cut.After having great fun there we went to hatari for our food.We ordered for fried rice,lemon chicken,garlic lamb..blah.blah..The food was really good.And between having our food we were busy pulling each others legs .For a few hours it seemed the years have rolled back.I felt like a little school kid of six yrs back with no bruised ego to care about,with no pressure on my back...Really i had a great time...However finally time came to part our ways...Anyway the sweet memory of this day will remain entrenched in my memory for long...

Thank u guys for making special!!!

This is one of the sweetest gift i received...

the journey.....

Hi friends, i have been away for a few mons.I was actually a bit busy and sometimes too lazy to write anything.But now i am here again to share with u some evets of my life in the last few mons... COLLEGE FEST-Well our college fest was held at the last week of February for 3 days.There was band competition,performances by students and some mindblowing performances by some guest bands.The programmes were amazing but beside this there were some memories that will linger in my mind for many years to come.the way i got crazy by drowning 2 bottles of beer,the way 2 of my frnd peed in front of a college building going high,the way mridul kissed me in his drunken state...;whenever i think of these incidents i begin to smile.It feels sad to think a few more months and for most of my class mates friend will be replaced by office colleague,movie and porn collection will be replaced by slides and project report,youthful exuberance will have to be replaced by professional maturity.However during those hard days it will be these memories that keep one going. My First success in an interview(tech mahindra)-After screwing up in the interviews of TCS and Atos Origin i finally nailed this one.This brought an immense relief and remove loads of pressure off me and i can breathe easy after a long time.It has been the only silver lining for me this year. The trip to digha-During the onset of bengali new year i went to digha with my friends.Really it was fun.But the greatest feeling i had during the trip was one day when i wake up at 5 o clock and went out to walk at the beach.It gave me a wonderful feeling walking on something not too hard with the sands moulding by my foot.the atmosphere was quiet.with some fishing boats far away and as the sun gradually rose it was reaaly a beautiful scenario.I felt all my tensions releasing and i realy felt good and felt life s worth living for a few of these moments. Well friend these r the 3 events that came to my mind.I also had some other nice memories of the last few mons but they will make this post more longer and u will get too bored.By the way i missed u during these days.however i used to visit some of ur blogs and often i used to read some old comment u made on my posts and they used to bring smile on my face and make me happy.These r the beauty of friends.U can feel their presence even when they r not beside u..

My attempt to bell the cat!!!!

Well my blog post is after a very long time.I was going through a very tough time.Anyway i am a bit relieved now.Hey dont get befooled by the title.My CAT story is a story abt my another failure.Still i am feeling a bit relieved now for another reason.That will make another post!!!!Now this one is abt THE CAT which took away some precious time from me.
Cat is regarded as the toughest xam to crack as they r the door way to the much VAUNTED IIM.If u get a chance to sneak in there ur minimum monthly salary will be in lacs.Thats a pretty big sum in our country.So as lacs of dreamers i decided to have a go.I joined the ims test series in july 2009.But my actually preparation started long ago.I still remember those days when i and sudipto use to try to solve those tough sums.But finally he decided to postpone his face -off with cat for one year and i became a solitary warrior.Anyway i carried on with my struggle.My first test at ims was a disaster.i got 78%tile.But soon i started to improve.In fact itwas a roller coaster ride.It included some highs as 99%tile as well as lows like 76%tile.But my memory abt those ims test series i not only abt the marks.I also met some gorgeous girls there.In fact i perhaps saw the most beautiful girl there in my life till now.She was tall fare and has dimple like preity zinta and her eyes have something.Anyway i couldnt make a friendship with her as she was always surrounded by her own friends and I still rue abt this fact.{"Mujhse ladkiya pat ti nehi he"}
Anyway whenever any thoughts of giving up cross my mind i use to inspire myself thinking may those cute girls can become my class mates at IIM and these thoughts use to charge me up.(what a pervert i am)
Finally the D-day came and those 135 mins went in a flash. And then wait for results strated.This period is among the worst period of my life.I suffered the ignominy of failing to get a job in TCS.i also suffered same fate in atos origin.However finally the results were out.I got 96.34%tile.It was not enough to enter iim.However i think its pretty good for me.If luck had favoured me a litle cat could be tamed.Anyway i am satified.
So thisis my cat story.I was a failure but hey i am satisfied.Getting happy at a failure -it sounds CRAZY.But thats the way i am.
So bye for now and wi try to bore u with more posts now...

The sky is falling down!!!!

Ooops i probably had my worst new year this year.Tcs came for campus placement to our college this year on 2nd and 3rd jan.I dreamt about bagging a job in this company for a long time but all my dreams crashed.Although i overcame the first hurdle i.e. clearing the written test the interview totally screwed me.I cant explain my feelings when i found my name was not in the list.My whole world seemed to be blank.I had a void feeling.The shock was so much i couldnt even cry.However my woes didnt end there.Next day the jmet results were out and i missed the iit cut off for 2 marks.I probably never felt so low on confidence in my life.The message in the message board of my room was-"BORN TO BE FAILURE" probably this few words totally depict my dejected feelings. Life lost its meaning to me and i was just going through motions.My friends tried to cheer me up but its my one of  my sweet friend  who finally lit up my mind.The friend  said something which i will always remember.-- "I choose you as my friend not because you are good in studies,not because of your funny antics.I like you because i know within this guy with an ever smiling face there is a person who effuses warmth in his every words,whose eyes lit up just by seeing others happy,who can drive away the gloom in anyones mind within a few minutes.I know you have a golden heart and i know success or failure wont change that.Anything else dont matter to me.So just stop being so miserable and be normal again" These words really touched me and i had decided to try to work more harder to use any opportunity i get.I might have lost the skirmish but i will ty to win the battle.God plss shower your blesings on me because without luck all my efoorts would be fruitless. "i want some sunshine i want some rain i want a chance i want to grow up once again"

One of the most important(?) 135 minutes of my life......

"what will happen if i am not able to get the best out of those 135 mins?"Where will i hide if those 135 mins dont yield the output i wish?"
These r the questions clouding my mind for the last few days.
Here i am again in this rat race in search of my destination.When i got into my college which is among the top 5 engineering clg in W.B. i thought may this be the end of my struggle.But soon the bubble bursted.The engineering subjects didnt inspire me and i felt as a fish out of water.
Finally after much mental battle i decided to sit for Cat 2009 :the problem to all my solutions and the solution to all my problems.for the last few months this meant everything to me.My scores in the mocks have been like a roller coaster ride.Sometimes they are poor again in the very next test they reach great heights.So i am greatly tensed and and the news about the goof ups that is happening due to the online test make me more jittery.I am getting a feeling that may be all my dreams will be crushed as usual but still i will try to chase them..
My favourite words..
"The world isnt all sunshine and rainbow.Its a mean and nasty place...............If you know what you are worth go out and get what you r worth.You must be ready to take the hit and not pointing fingers saying you arent where you r becas of him or her or anybody.Cowards do that and that aint you.You are better than that."-ROCKY BALBOA

I finally have the answers to all the questions..
Those minutes can decide my next step in life and i will try to give my best for those few minutes."

I want to run away....

Today i went to see my brother who studies at narendrapur.Its the best school in WEst bengal but its residential.Going there make me nostalgic.The memory of those days when i first went there as a 10 year kid flashes in my mind.Life then was so wonderful just laugh and play.With my "rosy cheeks,dimple chin" and sweet smile there were not many whose hearts i couldnt win.Life was so different and nice.

• The only movie star I care about was then not Srk or any other khan but Tom and jerry ,mickeymouse ,goofy,superman..
• The football team i used to shout for was not Arsenal or ManU but my section football team...
• It was not a big deal to have more than one best friend and that best friend also use to change often.
  
• Parents use to seem as angels when toys and candies use to pop out from their pockets
• The bravest thing which one imagine to think about is to walk into a dark room alone and ghosts seemed to be the only enemy of human
• the most shameful thing to me then was to loose to my friends in badminton match.
• friend were just not the guys to "hang "out with but those who always used to put out their helping hand whenever i was in a tight corner.
• exams were nothing more other than hurdles to go to new class

But now life has become so complex.I would be lying if i say growing up have no advantages.I can now watch whatever movie i like.Parents dont censure about what programmes to watch on T.v.
Mother doesnt enquire about whom i am talking on phone.In a word i have got more freedom.But with that have come more responsibilities and worries.One always have to pretend to be "cool" one need to be careful so that huge ego of others are not hurt.Life actually seems to have lost that "free-spirit of childhood"
AND now as i am in the final year of my engineering college the most important thing that is bugging me is thoughts about my career.Failure now just doesnt mean that one is not able to go to next class but failure here means that ones whole life becomes failure.i have got a taste of how bad is that feeling of that failure last wednesday when during the campuss placement of Vedanta.It was the first time i felt the need of a shoulder to cry upon,its the first time such a hollow feeling gripped me its the first time i felt so alone.And now i have more difficult hurdles before me.The entrance xams for MBA and then probably the campussplacement of tcs.I have dreamt about these for a long time but i have seen god almost always crush my dreams.I am feeling very jittery and i dont want to taste failure again....I just want to RUN AWAYand again return to those innocent days of childhood....
"Wish i could be always that way
As a little baby and keep my worries away"

Azab prem ki gazab kahani.....(my version)

It was raining heavily outside.I went inside a coffee shop to spend some time until the rain ceases.It was almost full as many guys like me have entered there to take shelter from the heavy shower.I ordered sandwich and cappuccino and took out the novel "3 mistakes of my life" by chetan bhagat and started reading.Suddenly i heard a very feminine voice that seemed familiar.

"a cup of cold coffee for me"
I looked and found a very familiar face.It was Geeta a friend of mine who used to study with me at engineering college.Suddenly the memories of those old days began to flash in my memory.
My college days were great.We( I and Udipto) were great friends.We always used to stick together because most of my batch mates were dumb.Our friendship grew more intense during our trip to Lava,Lolegaon(near kalimpong) .On that tour no girls from our department went.We tried to intrude into group of some other girls but didnt get a warm welcome.We tried to have some fun ourselves but nothing is complete for us without girls.
But suddenly one day we had some luck.We oneday went to a local restaurant and found the man at the counter shouting at two girls.We came to know that the girls are saying that they cant pay the bill because someone stole their purse in the shop but the shopkeeper is not believing them.Udipto never misses those chances.He went up promptly and paid the bill for those girls.The girls thanked us and soon we became friends.We came to know that they were the only 2 girls from their dept.So we began to hang out together.They were Geeta and Naina.They were not gorgeous but simple and smart.We had a great time there.We visited the Chagi falls together,We watched the sunset together from Lolegaon,we watched kanchenjunga from Rishap...We even oneday went out boating together in the amusement park in Kalimpong.
At the end of the tour i became pretty close to Naina.The 10 days of tour went in a flash and it was the time to return home.As planned we were returning by darjeeling mail.Just after we boarded the train it started raining.I couldnt sleep and went near the door and was watching the rain.I suddenly felt someone standing beside me.It was naina.
She said "so you r awake!!!"
I replied "i cant sleep at train"
She :I actually feel scary during these thunderstorms.
I: you are as childish as your voice suggests.
She:Hey come on i am the best singer in the college .Dont ridicule about my voice.
After this i kept on insisting her to sing a song and she finally obliged...
And started singing

iye dooriyan
in rahoon ki dooriya
fanah ho sabhi doodriyan...

When she ended i was completely engrossed in it.I asked"are you madly in love with someone?"
She" ya!But dont ask me his name...
After the trip i was lost in her dreams.But we cant meet regularly.She was from different dept.She mostly used to hang out with her own group of friends while i with my group.But still we used to meet twice or thrice in a week.
I had a deep crush on her but never proposed her.I knew she love somebody.Anyway days gradually pass away and few days were left before we pass out from college.Suddenly one day i got a call from Geeta.She said Naina got a message from my facebook account Where i expressed my feelings about her.I was stunned.I frankly denied.
"Come on!!Ari Didnt u propose her?"
I knew i didnt do it and even no one knew my password.I bluntly said"U two r among my best friends of my college.I knew Naina love someone else.How can i be such a pervert?I really like her company as i like to hang out with my other close friends.Thats it!!!"
Well after that day Naina began to behave a little strange with me.Soon however our college days were over.She returned to her home town Cuttock.I didnt meet her or heard from her after that...Well however the mystry always haunted me Who sent the message frm my account???






Hi Ari.. is that you?Well Getta was same as before although i am more fat now.We soon began to talk like old days.during our conversation i suddenly asked"Are you still single?"
She:i am not in a hurry to marry likeNaina.
i:Oh thats great!!!She is married OMG!!!(Although i felt pain in my heart i tried to be normal)
She:ya!this time she was lucky with someone who is better than a stupid friend who JUST LIKE her
I: What do you mean?"
She: you are stupid as before.You mever understand anything.Naina actually used to love you.But you the fool never understood..."
I:But she was upset about that message!She never talked with me as before after that.
She:There was no such message.We just planned to see your reaction and gauge your mind.But you break her heart.

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that was enough for me.I couldnt stand it anymore.Tears began to trickle from my eyes.
The song began to resonate in my ears....
iye dooriyan
in rahoon ki dooriyan
fanah ho sabhi dooriyan...







P.S. It is purely fictional.But the place i mentioned lava lolegaon,rishap are truely amazing.By the way the movie "azab pre.....kahini" is also good.U will enjoy it more if u watch it with your partner.